Thursday, October 27, 2011

Solace

It has been ages, don't think anyone comes here anymore. I am sad and this is the only place I could think of coming. A lot has happened since the last time I was here. I've been through all kinds of drama in the last one year; mild ones and huge ones too but through it all, I am alive. One of the best things that happened to me was meeting T. I have given up tryin to explain that thing bout him buh I have found out that it is unexplainable, so I'll just leave it at that.
He has been so wonderful that is why this hurts me to the core. T lost his bestfriend and mentor. The last one week has been really sad for him and sadly I have not been there for him,(not only physically).
I have been very fortunate when it comes to loosing loved ones (I pray this luck holds) as I am one of those people who do not know how to handle losses. I just withdraw and go numb, hence it becomes hard for me to console people who are greiving. So obviously in the last one week I have been in a World of my own and not being as supportive as I ought to be, basically I have been a selfish b**tch.I just dunno what to say or do coz I imagine It will never be adequate. I feel really bad and I wanna be better, buh I'm at a loss, dunno where to start.
R.I.P Pastor Engr Kenny Adelore, I may not have met you before but I have heard nothing short of positive things about you and I appericiate that you have been instumental to shaping T to the man that he is today, and for that I am highly grateful. I pray God grants your family, friends, and loved ones fortitude ti bear your loss. Amen.